25 random things about me

Dear Amir,

Just wanna share with you what i had posted on my facebook recently since i reckon that it'll be highly unlikely that facebook will be around till you are old enough to know how to use it, but if it does stay around that long, it'll be supercool cos i can add you as my friend, though i doubt it will be cool for you to have your mum in your facebook circle. And even if facebook is still around then, i doubt it's for free, and it's almost definite that i wont be paying to sustain my account there, so i guess no access to this oh-so-important piece of info about ME!

Aaaaaanyway, here goes, 25 random facts about your mom.

1. I like the colour yellow. I dont necessarily like wearing it or using it. But it’s so me

2. I nearly fell to death during a hike in outward bound school. Was clinging for dear life on a huge rock next to a deep ravine. It was movielike suspense (at least to me) and I will never forget the look on Ben’s and Lish’s face seeing me in that position

3. I dont deal well with death. I dont know how to express condolences. I dont know how to extend my sympathy to a friend who have lost someone. It’s not that I dont care but I’m just numb (or dumb?) when it comes to this subject

4. I (hubby n me actually) planned to have five kids before i turned 35. I know, we’re really bad at maths.

5. I am a narcissist.

6. I have tried to lose weight using so many ways or products and succeed at some but mostly fail miserably la. I guess I just dont really want it bad enough. Hahah.. excuses

7. I met my husband through the internet.

8. I believe i’m a true blue Libran

9. I can speak bilingual Kelantanese very well ie Kelantan slang + English. I consider that a talent.

10. I’m adventurous when it comes to food. But that comes with a cost. Have eaten Nelson ice cream that taste like kodomo lion toothpaste, simply because i want to try a non-conventional combination

11. I’m enterpreneurial and I believe i’m capable of great things. But i’m also lazy. So that makes me a Mat Jenin.

12. I like my hair short, but a certain someone prefer it long even though it’s always in a boring ponytail. Since i dont stare at myself in the mirror much, it’s better to make someone else happyla pulak

13. I used to jokingly claim to be quarter italian (among my close friends). I sort of stop after my friend told my Italian housemate about it and she starts to seriously ask question about my origin trying to figure if i’m for real!

14. The only italian thing about me is the fact that i like italian food. The cheese, tomato, basil and all. But then again I also like Japanese food, Kelantanese food, Thai..etc

15. I used to really hate this one particular ex boss of mine.. jeng jeng jeng. But now i realised he/she thought me a lot simply by him/her being incompetent and unbelievably impossible.

16. I’m bad at birthdays, names, titles and lyrics. But i do remember lyrics of the weirdest or funniest song. One example is a Ramlah Ram’s dangdut number..told you i’m bad at titles.. but i swear i remember the lyric line by line, including the lenggok2..muahaha

17. I married my first love. : )

18. I’m fairly good at sports. Not great but okla, and i enjoy most sports anyway. Except badminton – i’m totally hopeless at it, witnessed by a hall full of ppl.

19. I dont remember my childhood much. But it was a happy one, that’s for sure.

20. My dream ‘career’ would be to become a grocer selling Asian stuff in Brisbane. Or run an Asian food restaurant in Brisbane

21. I dont use any facial cleanser, toner or moisturiser. I believe in self cleansing sebum.

22. I’m lazy at making new friends and make little effort at catching up with old ones so those who are STILL my friends are definitely true friends indeed.

23. I can fall asleep almost anywhere n anytime, when i feel like it. But I cant sleep in a flight (maybe cos it's economy class kot)

24. I heart Matt Damon... way before he became one of the sexiest man alive. I dont think he's good looking but he makes me blush ; )

25. Sometimes, I forget that my son is mine and thought of him as my baby brother instead.

End of my narcisistic, short cut post!

Countdown to Adik - 33 weeks

Dear Amir,

During our last visit to your paed, I had my second thorough scan. Adik is a girl, still. Doc pointed out her clearly defined parts and confirmed once again that we're expecting a girl. She's healthy though slightly small for her age, the amniotic fluid surrounding her is sufficient and she's already in position to launch downsouth.. hehe. Good girl! Oh, we also saw her pout.. very obvious! If she enherits papa's eyes and have straight fine hair, she'll definitely be the girl version of you now. Somehow i hope she gets your cousins cool curls, though Papa warned that it'll be big n frizzy once she grew up. Aaaanyway, alhamdulillah, all is ok.

Lately, i've been finding myself busy with all sorts of things. I realised that it'll be another few weeks before i'll be a mother of two. Arkk! There's so many things to do and i think i'm behind schedule. We havent bought her a single thing except for 3 pair of pink mittens! Actually there's not much to buy anyway cos most of your clothes/stuff are still in good condition. I have asked kakak to wash n organise all you old clothes, but i havent managed to sort them out and figure out what we are lacking of.

We still havent bought the playpen/cot for tok Ma's house. Papa said it'll be redundant. I hope it'll not be the case. When you were small and immobile, tok ma would lug you around and place you wherever suitable, the moses basket (Che' Su's), the bouncy chair, or simply on your mattress on the floor. The only precaution we need to have was to lock Boy in his cage. Now, i dont think we have that flexibility anymore.. since we have a very curious toddler who is veryvery interested in a baby. So there, i've stated my case.

Am also looking but (havent decided) for a sling/pouch/any sort of babycarrier to wear adik. Papa is again not that enthusiastic cos we never carry you this way anyway. But i learnt my lesson. Once you are smart enough to refuse your strollers, it's always ME who had to carry you around. While Papa does his part once in a while, somehow he does not have the endurance (i'm being nice) to carry you for an extended durationla, i mean comparative to me, or tok ma. Heh! So again, this is my decision because i will be affected by it most of the time.

Then, there's the breastfeeding gadgets. The whole spectrum of it. Then it's just as easy as bottles, teats, bottle brush and formula. I do have a manual pump but after going through forums/websites, it seems that i may need to upgrade to an advance version of pump due to 1. lack of milk supply and 2. inverted nip. I'll play the wait game on this one and see if these will still be the case when she arrives. Else, we're talking about another pump, an electric one, the storage bottles/plastics, breast pad, nip cream, milk-enhancing supplement, nursing wear (God knows how difficult it is to find a normal bra my size, now need to look for the selak2 one some more??).

Which brought us to a whole new level of discussion last nite - we may need a bigger fridge, cos ours is soooo kecik as it is now, wat with frozen milk supply later.

Papa is very lukewarm about the whole prep thingy i guess cos we're low on cash at the moment..haha. I was in fact thinking of doing up a baby gift register thingy so that we get exactly wat we want and make everyone happy.. haha.. yeah right. I'm not concerned about this whole purchases, kalau ada rezeki, adala.. afterall we can always sell off Papa's sweetheart, ie the bike. That can easily buy us all of the above ; )

Aaaanyway, i also just realised that our co's acc period ends in May, which means that by the time i got back from maternity leave, i'll be bogged down with acc preparation/organisation for the audit. So, instead of going through that last minute like we always do, i'm starting to organise everything now. Hopefully things will be better this year with all the new system that i introduced. Else buat dek jelah when tok pa nag later. Also, we have an important project to deliver by early April.. no, not adik.. Was solely involved in it from the start, so now preparing to handover that too.

Oh, i dunno if this is part of nesting, i'm also reorganising some of our filing at the office. Preparing to back up everything and keep as reference, maybe for me during my maternity nanti. I remembered being so carefree during your time, i've just had a baby, do not disturb for 60 days, and off me go. It's hard to do that this time. Was just finished with archiving 8 years worth of digital photos...personal/work. Next is to finally choose the wedding pics to reprint as customised album (yes, wedding pics!). Am also clearing off the Totshop old stocks and preparing for a revamp after my maternity leave. I think I want to restock and introduce more stuff later, perhaps with a different focus. And this blog, i think it need another facelift. Maybe to move it to a new home altogether?

Wah. Gila la.. now i feel like the new year has started. I hope this year will be a productive year. I'm actually anxious. Suddenly i can clearly remember how painful it was. I think knowing what i'll face soon does not really mean that i'll be better prepared. Lagi takut adala..Ignorance is bliss indeed. I hope all these activities will keep my mind off it though.

Oh, by the way.. you can call 'my tummy' ADIK now. And we never thought you that.. i dunno how your brain works and is able to connect that baby in tummy = adik. You really amaze me. Everyday.

Bebeh!

Sayang bebeh.. mmmmmaah!

18 mths and counting

Dear Amir,

Last week, we went for your 18th mth check up, and the last compulsory jab. Alhamdulillah, doc said you're progressing very well physically (weight 13.8kg, height 80cm) and has nothing to be worried about although you look heavy and rounded.. hehe. You also spot a big hairdo these days cos your hair now has a life of its own ever since we cut it short the other day. I think i'll just let it lose for a whilela till i decide if to cut it or not :P

This month, you showed a noticeable progress in your vocab and pronounciation. It happened overnite.. and some of these words are random words that you chose to pick up just because you like them i guess, cos we dont use them quite often. Some of the cuter ones are

Amir : Mmmmm-may

Alamak : amakk..
Aiyoyo : yoyo..
Ya Allah : aaa-woh
Susu : u-uh
air : ayie
takde : takdeeee
no more : emm-more
yeh : yeay
cho : tow
abe : bey (you decide 'abe' is easier compared to 'uncle wan')
playground : ayy-yaun
yeay yeay : waeyy
car : kha
lorry : loghi/loyi
monkey : ka-kih
dukung : ku-kong
wait : weee

You've also turned into a papa's boy lately. Since we wean you off our bed, Papa has been attending to your every needs and whine at nite (feeding, scratch your back, tuck you in, take off the blanket, find your puting etc) cos it'll take me forever to pick myself up from the bed. Sometimes, Papa end up sleeping on the floor by your side cos he just could be bothered to return to bed since you will call out for him 4-5 times a nite. This new routine made you two closer. So nowadays, whenever you are sleepy, you'll call for 'Baba/Papa' and pat your pillow asking him to sleep by your side. When he went away, you'll notice and call for him non stop. When he returns, you'll glow and shout 'Baba/Papa'! Last weekend, we were away for a break and you slept with Tok Ma but woke her up few times asking to go to 'Baba'.

I'm so blessed to have your Papa doing this for us especially when I really2 need my undisturbed sleep now. Sometimes i feel bad because i know he is one person who treasure his sleep veryvery much (we're the same kind you see). He never complained. Of course, the idealist in me would want him to do so much more especially in taking care of you :P. But i also realise that he has done a lot for both of us and is really doing all he can to take over more responsibility in preparation for little adik soon.

Speaking of adik, you have lately grew fonder of little babies. You are so into babies that you'll attempt to kiss, nuzzle or will simply coo at the baby when you see one. In fact you have now developed the cheekiness to immitate them. Asking me to swaddle you in blanket, and pat you to sleep while you immitate a baby crying. I guess I wont have any problem with sibling jealousy, at least not these early few months. Finger crossed. Oh yeah, that reminds me that you are capable of jealousy. You wont mind me carrying another kid/baby, you dont mind other kid taking away your toy but once you see me snuggling with Papa, or hugging Che' Su, or lying next to your uncles, you will retaliate and start to throw tantrums.

Oh well, I guess that's a good development in a way huh? Anyway, here's hoping that both you and Papa will adjust smoothly once adik arrives. I know you two have been making lots of progress towards that. And for that (and manymany more things), I love you both so veryvery much. Happy 18 mths Amir and thank you for the amazing 18mths journey of parenthood together sayang. ; )

The curious case of Benjamin Button - version Amir (i dare say the cuter one)